Open Door, Open Heart
“Open Door; Open Heart.”
I often measure myself against this quote. When I think of “me;” the definition of introvert comes to mind. After I consider the more positive connotations that define me, I gradually exhale, and inhale God’s grace.
I like be alone at times; but am very outgoing in my daily interactions with people. Still, I need my alone time in order to refresh and rejuvenate my worn-out soul. There is a sense of freedom in being alone, where one can explore their thoughts and connect the dots of God’s unfolding plans.
At times I doubt the openness of my heart. This is some spiritually risky business. When we doubt, we play with matches. Our thoughts, words, and self-esteem affects our actions. Self-image impacts the world around us more than we know. I see evidence of this truth apparent in students who bully; adults who bully; even the “road-ragers” who honk and cuss at people in their cars. They would never in a million years have the audacity to confront someone about their driving grievances in order to make the road a safer place. Rather than confront their own insecurities, they would rather yell and scream at someone else, in order to puff up their own tires.
The nature of my career, role as a wife, and who I am as a daughter of Christ completely invalidates the stamps of failure I tend to give myself. Lucky for me, God does not always equip the “qualified;” He equips the called. Still, the “Open-Door; Open Heart” quote challenges me in an all-encompassing way. The heavy burden, and assured freedom this statement implies overwhelms me. It takes me back in time. I am in the seventh grade at a cross country meet, at the starting line anxiously waiting for the gun to go off. Soon I will endure and persevere throughout a grueling 3-kilometer race. This open-door; open heart style of daily-life is attainable; and I think that is precisely why I have these gut-wrenching feelings. Living with my heart wide open; inviting every person-in, risking the possibility that some might hurt me; becoming a more patient, kind, and giving; I know this race will require the effort of every fiber of my being.
Maintaining this lifestyle will require the shedding of our sweat, tears, and even some blood at times. (New wives, be careful when slicing an avacado in hand with a steak knife!) Sisters in Christ, live assured. Once we each cross that finish line, and collapse into the arms of Jesus, the pain and discomfort we endure in giving all of our love to this thing called life; will be eternally worthwhile.
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If you are thinking that the door of your heart is shut, locked, and currently not even a crow bar could open it; remember to seek Jesus. He is the only one with the key. Some seasons are more painful than others, and more blood than happiness flows; but God is with you. Even in the Valley of the Shadow of Death; there would be no shadow if light were not surrounding whatever obstacle it is that you are facing.